Frustrating.

I'm finding this return to a not so good patch of the CFS to be rather frustrating. We were at a point that we thought we might be almost through it. Life was starting to be lived almost normally. Rests and early nights were had by choice not necessity. Long walks were feasible. It was possible to talk in the phone for longer than twenty minutes without feeling wiped out after. But now we are back to a place were conversations need to be kept short, exercise is taken down to a minimum, rests and early nights are most definitely a necessity. It feels like such a big backwards step, maybe more of a leap. It is going to take many many small steps to return to where we were, but I am determined that slowly and surely those small steps will be taken. However long and frustrating that might be.

Garden

We have been growing things in our garden this summer. I know it is not unusual for people to grow things in a garden, but until this summer we have never intentionally grown anything. In the old house we had a small front garden, and the only things that grew initial were things that the previous inhabitants had planted, once a year the husband would cut everything right back, and that is all we did. We did make an attempt at growing some tomatoes, but failed miserably. This year we have grown some bulbs out the front garden, tulips, aliums and something I can't remember the name of. They were all very beautiful, I loved walking out the front door to see the prettiness and beautiful colours. We have grown grass, some from seed and some that came to us from turf. The husband loves looking after it, he is so proud of the lawn when he's cut it. We have also grown some edible things. We have had some of our home grown potatoes, with some more growing, we have been enjoying the strawberries growing in tubs by the shed and our tomato plants have been late developers, but are now flowering, we shall see if they produce fruit. We tried to grow some courgette plants but something in the garden found the plants rather tasty and ate them all up! We now have some lavender planted in the border, and are thinking what other plants we might add to the border. It has been so satisfying growing things. I like creating generally, making things, but there is greater satisfaction in creating things that you can eat and that are so beautiful. I can see why God on creating the world and all that is in it that he looked at it and declared that it is good.