Sleep

I can't remember if I've said before, and I'm too lazy to go back and check, but I find lack of sleep is one of the hardest things to deal with with CFS/ME. It seems wrong somehow that an illness that leaves you feeling exhausted the whole time also does its best to stop you from sleeping. However these last three nights I have slept really well. I have had a could of wake ups each night, but each one was a case of snuggle down and go back to sleep, rather than be awake for hours lucky to get back to sleep at all. Whilst with CFS/ME any sleep you do get tends to be unrefreshing, I sure do feel better for having had a few actual nights sleep in a row. I'm hoping it carries on for a while to come, the day is easier to face when you know you are rested.

Anxiety

It would appear that the latest thing to add itself to the list for things to work through is a good dose of anxiety. Doing anything outside of the house tha involves interaction with other people, but that I have to do without the husband, leads me to become so anxious that I kinda struggle to even epleave the house. I think that this all stems from the fact that for so long I was reliant on the husband to get me about because I couldn't drive far and couldn't walk far. At the time we lived in a place that to see anyone we knew involved either a long drive or an impossible walk. So physically I was reliant in him to take me places and be places with me. This physical dependency then turned into an emotional dependency, and it's not since we've been loving in a place that I can walk/drive places from that we've realised quite how emotionally reliant I've been on him. I can manage things like going for a swim by myself as it doesn't really involve interaction with other people. But things where people are are a bit of a no no. It would turn out that the things that cause the most anxiety are things that are akin to the job I used to do. Things that are not related to the kind of things I used to at work still cause anxiety, but not at the same level. We are working through it, looking for root causes, counteracting them and gradually building up things I do by myself. I could do with noting else adding itself to the list of things that need working through, there is plenty enough there already.