Anxiety

It would appear that the latest thing to add itself to the list for things to work through is a good dose of anxiety. Doing anything outside of the house tha involves interaction with other people, but that I have to do without the husband, leads me to become so anxious that I kinda struggle to even epleave the house. I think that this all stems from the fact that for so long I was reliant on the husband to get me about because I couldn't drive far and couldn't walk far. At the time we lived in a place that to see anyone we knew involved either a long drive or an impossible walk. So physically I was reliant in him to take me places and be places with me. This physical dependency then turned into an emotional dependency, and it's not since we've been loving in a place that I can walk/drive places from that we've realised quite how emotionally reliant I've been on him. I can manage things like going for a swim by myself as it doesn't really involve interaction with other people. But things where people are are a bit of a no no. It would turn out that the things that cause the most anxiety are things that are akin to the job I used to do. Things that are not related to the kind of things I used to at work still cause anxiety, but not at the same level. We are working through it, looking for root causes, counteracting them and gradually building up things I do by myself. I could do with noting else adding itself to the list of things that need working through, there is plenty enough there already.