Prison

I occasionally feel like I am in some kind of prison, only able to play out when someone comes to release me. I cannot walk far on my own, and I find driving to be so tiring that it is not worth even attempting. And so unless someone comes to let me out and take me somewhere then I am stuck inside these four walls. It doesn't help that our house is very small and so I can't even get much of change of scene when in the house. All of our friends live a twenty minute drive from our house. As I cannot drive at the moment I am reliant on them coming to see me. However people don't seem to do that so often. I don't know if its the distance, or that they think I won't be up to seeing them. I would happily tell them if I was too tired for a visit if they let me know beforehand they were coming. If I know I have something on for a particular day then I will base the rest of my day, the rest and the activity, around whatever it is I am doing. I think I'm feeling a bit more imprisoned than usual as we were at Soul Survivor last week. And I felt free. There were people about whenever I was up to people. There were things that I could access on my own as they were near enough to walk. And now I am back to my four walls. It's making me look forward even more to a little visit to the home town at the end of the month.